Monthly Archives: October 2015

“What brings you Joy? What brings you Joy”

Dear Heavenly Father, Sweet Loving Presence; the question I am asking myself today, the question that my mind is reeling with today, the question that I am hearing in my mind is what brings you joy?  What brings you joy? Now if I had asked myself this question many many months ago, I would have probably had a different answer than the answer that I have today.  But if I had asked this question of myself many many months ago, I may not have been as transparent and as authentic as I am today.

What brings me joy, what brings me total joyfulness in my life is the fact that I am still and will always be a believer and a lover of the Heavenly Spirit.  That above all else brings me so much joy.  But there are other things in my life that bring me joy; the changing of the seasons from one to another, and my most special season of the year Fall, I love Fall.  I love the crispness of the air, I love the blankets, I love the throws, I love the fires in the fireplace, I love the amazing beauty that the season shows as the colors of the leaves show in all their brilliance.  They too are shining and coloring up for Fall, I love Fall and it brings me joy.

I love food; I am a foodie and the idea of coming home to a hot bowl of seafood gumbo during a cold Fall evening; oh wow that can bring such joy to my lips as it brings to my stomach as well.  What is your joy?  To some people joy is them calling their own shots, them determining their own destiny, them determining their own life; and what they see their life to be brings them joy.  Owning your own business, making your own way, making your own money, showing the world your creativity, is a way of bringing you joy and bringing joyfulness into your life.  And isn’t that what it’s all about, how can we find more joy, and how can we bring into our existence the joy that we have and make it even multiply into even more joy?

I think some things we do we think bring us to a place of joy but do they really?  Sometimes I see people going into the building at my job and they don’t look joyful.  But they are going into a job that they have been given an opportunity that they have been afforded and they don’t seem joyful.  No I look at joy, I look at happiness, I look at these things as something that you need to find within yourself, find within yourself what those things can be for you.  I have an amazing girlfriend who told me the other day that with her and her significant other she feels she is not making him happy, she is not bringing him joy.  And I wanted to share with her as I wanted to share with everyone that I see and I meet is that no one can make you joyful, no one can make you happy, for the long-term.

You must bring out within yourself; you must bring it out from within yourself that joy, that happiness, that amazing joyfulness that you expect to see in the world, it must first start and begin with you.  So what brings you joy?  What allows you to bring a smile to your face, and a pep to your step and an excitement in your mind as you begin the day, what brings you joy?  Is it the thought that you have been able to wake up another day that brings you joy?  Is it the thought that you are going to be of service to someone else that brings you joy?  Is it the thought that your feeling within yourself all the love of God in your life, does that bring you joy?  Because I tell you it brings me joy, it makes me happy, it brings me joyfulness.

I thank you Heavenly Father for allowing me once again to see within myself what I bring to the table of my life.  I thank you Heavenly Father for letting me to see within myself what I bring to the world.  And I thank you God for allowing me to see for myself that the joy that I am seeking, that the joy that I am looking for, that the joy that I feel should be mine is mine within myself and I bring it out and I share that joy; I remind others of the joy that they are to themselves.  And I put a period behind feeling any other way but joyful; because to love the Heavenly Spirit, to love yourself and to see for yourself all the blessings that are waiting for you.  I say to you today where is your joy, your joy is within.  Where is your happiness, your happiness is within, where is your peace that joy will bring you and it is within; for you are the joy that you have been seeking and so it is, Amen and amen.  Thank you my Father for the joy, and so it is

“Acting with integrity brings me peace”

One of the most amazing things that I have been experiencing lately is how I have changed since I have come back from my trip to the Parliament of the World’s Religions.  I think I had originally expected a really huge Aha moment I wanted to go on this Spiritual journey to feel something in my life that was going to speak to me, oh about what my destiny was, or what my mission was or what I was here to be and all of that.  But I didn’t get that really big Eureka moment that I had been looking for, but what I have been telling people is that when I came back I felt differently, very different.  Some things matter more to me more than anything else than I have ever ever felt. And one of those things that matters more to me was my beloved Husband and us worshiping together.  For a while my husband and I had not been going to the same Spiritual home, my husband had his reasons and I respected them.  But I had duties and obligations at my Spiritual home and I felt I had to do what was right to do.  But then I started seeing who was it right for; I don’t know how long have to live on this planet, none of us do.  And as I heard from a story on Oprah’s mini-series Belief, the day we are born is one day closer to the day that we will die.  Our lifetimes are such a short period of time, such a short span-of-time.

And I have realized more so than not that time, time is something that is very very special to me.  How I use my time, who I use my time with and how my time is being of benefit and of service to serving the Lord is very important to me.  So when I came back from the Parliament of the World’s Religions I had to make some decisions I knew that.  And I had thankfully I was given a lot of prompts from Spirit on the decisions that I needed to make.  I remember receiving an email the day I was to attend the latest Board of Trustees meeting that I was going to and the email said to me, and it came just just as you get random emails from different sources.  I think this one may have come from Deepak Chopra’s website and it said know when, know when, know when it’s time to quit, know when the time is to quit and close the door and say goodbye to something.

And I said wow this is so amazing because I am vacillating back and forth should I be on the Board still, should I continue to be on the Board, I just wasn’t feeling what I needed to be feeling.  I wanted to feel peace and Heaven and joy and I was not feeling that any more.  So I made a decision that I was already going to resign from the Board and then a situation came into my life that brought it even more into focus that I needed to do that and to be honest with you I feel a tremendous weight lifted off my shoulders to be a non-member of the Board of Trustees of Unity of Sacramento, my church.  There is work to be done and there are good people to do the work, but I must do my work in another area where I can be of service to the Lord.

And then I had to make some other decisions; I had to make some other decisions and the decisions that I made were I need to worship with my husband.  My husband and I take our worship, take out faith, take our love of God very seriously; and it brings no peace to my soul to sit in the congregation of my Spiritual Home without my husband beside me. So I decided to back away from the Spiritual Home that I have called home for many many years so that I could be where my husband and I can go together as a family.  He and the relationship that we have with each other means more to me than any other relationship on this planet.  I don’t know why it was so hard for me to see that earlier how important it was for us to worship together.

And then there was another duty that I had to step away from as well.  There are more things coming in my life I’m not done I feel this; I have been a Prayer Chaplain with my church for over three years.  I have loved that duty, I have loved that commitment I have loved what God has done through me and how God has allowed me to help others with prayer, I will always be a Prayer Warrior as a servant of the Lord, I will always forever be that.  But I felt that something else was coming out of me, something else that I needed to pursue and I need to pursue that in my own way.  So I put myself in Prayer Chaplain Emeritus status, I put myself in a suspense status because I am on a journey, and the journey that I am on I need my total total commitment to realize that to find that to figure that out I need to be able to move through this with my senses and facilities of 100 percent.

I am seeking something, and I need to be able to find that, so it is my integrity, the integrity that I have that I don’t do anything half way.  I’m not in and out, I’m in or I’m out so at the present time I love my Spiritual family, I love my Spiritual home.  But I love God and I love the God within me and I love my Husband and we will take this time he and I to find a place where we can be together so that we can worship together, and I will continue to find what I am seeking for that is going to allow me to receive what I need to receive as well.  God is not through with me, it is only the tip of the iceberg but in order for me to be a part of whatever this new journey is I must start anew, and I am excited and I look forward to what I am to do in this next part of the Spiritual path that I am on.

I have been telling people little by little of my decisions and I have felt so open, so open to receive what is mine to receive as I’m going through this journey.  I am open my Father, I am open and I am ready to receive your instruction, I am open my Father.  I am open and I am ready to receive what needs to be given to me so that I can do, and be and receive, and allow and achieve what needs to be coming out of me to be a benefit and a service to this world.  Yes, maybe I did receive my Eureka moment when I went to the Parliament of the World’s Religions, maybe I did receive the moment that I had been looking for all along because I feel that I am on a journey now that is so exciting, so exciting.  I thank you God for allowing me to come with an open mind and an open heart and to surrender myself to your, your mission, your will.  I’m on this journey, I am open to receive, I look forward to what I receive from you, I look forward to what I receive from you, I look forward to the journey as we go forward together, and so it is, Amen and amen

“I am one with God, healed, whole and healthy”

I am one with God healed, whole and healthy.  Dear Heavenly Father, Sweet Loving Presence; I have found myself amazingly well, amazingly well.  I came back from my trip my Father and I am not who I was before.  And isn’t that what a Spiritual trip is supposed to provide for you in your life.  An awakening of something within you that was so dormant or something that was so close to being revealed that it needed just a little bit of a push to shine out into the world just what you were meant to be.

I speak about my trip going to the Parliament of the World’s Religions so much information was downloaded into my mind and so much data was received in such a short period of time. I felt overwhelmed with this feeling of intentions of good that I wanted to see and I will see manifested in the world.  The idea that it is not necessary to be tolerated as much as it is necessary to be embraced and loved by all.  I found myself looking for an answer that only you could provide me with, I went there with the intention and the determination to receive what I needed in my life so that I could know where my path was to go forward.

I learned and saw so many things, I experienced so many blessings and I realized that my path, my goal, my destiny is intertwined with you my Father.  Oh the years can’t go by fast enough so that I can begin my new life; but my new life has already begun.  I had been telling myself that when I retire that is when I will begin my ministry that is when I will begin the new walk of my life into the servitude of serving God as an ordained minister.

But I feel I can still serve God and I can still walk toward that light of reasoning by doing what I am doing now.  Sharing the words of the Heavenly Father with all that I love and all that see His love in their life is a ministry that I have already.  And though I may not be ordained and I may not wear a collar or I may not wear the stole or hold the staff of a minister, I minister to individuals every single day.  I am a voice in the army of the Lord’s; I am a servant in the world of bringing about peace and love to this human race that we call humanity.   And because of that my Father, I am healed, healthy and whole, because I am a child of yours.

I laid in bed this morning and I was thinking about how I could relay to others just what this experience meant to me, just what this experience brought out of me, just what this experience that I had foretold to me and all I keep feeling is a peacefulness in my life.  Where there was doubt there is no longer, where there was uncertainty there is no longer.  And I feel that I am still so open, ah still so receptive to receive what is needed to be given to me.  I love a new word that I’m using quite often intention.  It is my intention, I intend to do this with my life, I intend to be this for the Lord, I intend to see within my lifetime peace in this world, that is my intention.  And as I sat together with those 9,500, let’s just say 10,000 people who had that same intention as well, it was the most breathtaking experience I have ever had in my life.

My husband and I are in the process of buying our very first brand new home that brings an amazing, an amazing accomplishment into my life.  And this is not my first home but this is the home that I say was bought from the Spirituality and the love of God in my life; I cannot wait to have my sisters and my brother, my Prayer Chaplain family to come and bless every room in my house.  I look forward to that energy; my life has become anew and as I bring a close to some things in my life as being on the Board of Trustees with my church is coming to a close.  As being a servant to the State of California is coming to a close; but what is awakening and opening in my life is my service to the Lord and I believe it is more important than any other service I have ever done.

So I say today to the Heavenly Spirit, I say today to the God within myself that has allowed me to see what God has done in my life.  God I am healthy, whole and complete because you provide that for me.  And I am healthy, whole and complete because I see finally what my life is meant to be, and I am healthy, whole and complete because I will devote my life from this day forward in every and any capacity that I can to be a servant to the Lord, and to use that ministry that I have within myself to shine the light of love, peace, faith, joy, hope, forgiveness and all good things out into the world.

For as a child of God I must and I may continue to see his works, the good works, all the good works of the Lord in my life.  I thank you Heavenly Father for the blessings you have provided me and my family for, I thank you Heavenly Father for the blessings you have allowed me and my family to see in our existence, and I thank you Heavenly Father for it took a trip halfway across this great state of the USA to show me what I knew all along within myself and as I say it again, when I looked for something to give me what I needed I found that what I needed was something that I already had.  And I looked for that person to be and I was already that person that stared back at me in the mirror.  I thank you God for all you have given me, I thank you God for the illumination you have provided me with and I thank you God for the role that I will be able to play in this magnificent ministry and I say thank you God for all of that, and so it is, Amen and amen.

“May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer” Psalms 19:14

Dear Heavenly Father, Sweet Loving Presence; you are my rock, you are my redeemer, you are what brings to me what I need every day to calm, to bring peace, to bring solace to my soul.  For I am a child of yours, and by being a child of yours it is needed, it is required, it is necessary that I be made calm by the love of the Father, made calm by the love of all that you bring into my life.  The blessings that are so appreciated and I am grateful for.

The challenges that allow me to learn lessons that bless me as well, and the circumstances which I find myself in allow me to find ways to entwine and intertwine within my mind the creativity to solve these circumstances which allows me to see your works in my life.  To see your works in my life more clearer, to see your works in my life more clearer, to see you in my life as the substantial source that you are; I am who I am because of the grace of you my Father.

I am who I am, because of all you provide, allow, bring into my existence, which allows me to bring out of myself what is needed to be all that I can be and I am so grateful.  I am so grateful you are, you will always be, you will forever be in my life what brings to me the peace that I need for my soul.  Which allows me to see myself, drifting along a smooth, a smooth ocean yet there may be ripples, and there may be tides and occasionally there may be a current that shows me something underneath it all.  But, because of you, because of the love of you, because of all you bring to me, to my life to this existence, I am able to sail, to drift on that amazing sea of continuous change, but also the beauty of the stillness of water you allow that, you provide that, you bring that into my life.

I thank you Heavenly Father for the love that I receive from you, I thank you Heavenly Father for the feelings that I receive from you, I thank you my Father.  For it is because of you, it is because of you, it is because of you that I feel at peace, it is because of you that I see peace in my life, it is because of you that peace is in my existence, it is because of you and so it is, Amen and amen.

“Because if I am Grace, Because I am Grace”

Dear Heavenly Father, Sweet Loving Presence; I was in meditation yesterday providing a service as the meditation leader at church during the 10:15 a.m. hour, and in meditation I kept hearing this word grace: giving love, receiving love,accepting love, celebrating love, visioning, evolving and envisioning love; I did not fully understand what it meant.  Because if I am grace I am giving love to others, because if I am grace I am receiving love from others, because if I am grace I am accepting love from others, because if I am grace I am celebrating love with others, because if I am grace I am envisioning love from others, because if I am grace.

I didn’t understand what it meant, and I didn’t understand what I was trying to communicate and it was during the meditation so I had to figure out a way to present that to and through what I was saying in the meditation.  Well I was able to get through that and I went into service and then the word grace kept popping up to me again, grace because I am grace.  Because I give love to others I receive love, because I receive love from others I am able to give love, because I am accepting love from others I am able to accept love and allow love to be acceptable as part of the equation, because I am grace.  Because I am celebrating love, love celebrates me, and because I am evolving and envisioning love, love allows me to be evolved and envisioned as well, because I am grace.

Because if I am an individual who sees my life walking the way that the Lord, and the way that Jesus the Christ sees me to be; I am here to be a celebratory agent, to be an agent of love, to be a prophesier of love, to be a prophet of love, to provide love to the world.  How can I do that?  By allowing myself to put the words together to allow my words to be loving to you.  Let me be the grace that you need to see love in your life, let love grace your life with all its beauty, and all it’s its amazing facets that it is love.  Can we not have too much love in this world, can we not have too much love in this world, I think not.  I think that if we are ever to do away with anything let it not be love.  Let love be the answer to every equation, to every subtraction and addition and multiplication problem that we have in this world let it be solved by love.

Because I am grace, because you are grace; because you are giving love and receiving love as well, because you are receiving love and allowing love to come into your existence as well.  Because you are accepting love as the answer to any any problem that arises in your life as well, and because you are celebrating love which deserves to be celebrated in all its glory, and because you have envisioned and evolved into a loving magnet that allows love to be attracted to you as well.  I say that because of grace you are who you are.  Be a force today that allows love to bring itself to the forefront of any issue in your life, be a magnet today that attracts love to you and allows you to send that love out to everyone that needs it that you see along your way.

Be today the day that you, that you show the world that because of you; because I am grace, because you are grace, because we are grace, we will save this world; because we are grace, we will save this world; because we are giving love, because we are receiving love, because we are accepting love, because we are celebrating love, because we are envisioning and evolving into love magnets we are going to save this world.  Thank you God for the message you have given us today, thank you God for the love that we will send around this world today, and thank you God for the opportunity to be grace, to feel grace, and to acknowledge grace in our lives today, and so it is, Amen and amen.

“I take a deep breath in and I say yes; I take a deep breath in and I say yes”

Dear Heavenly Father, Sweet Loving Presence; Father I take a deep breath in and I say yes.  I say yes to whatever you have asked me, whatever you ask me, whatever has been asked of me, I take a deep breath in and I say yes.  I take advantage of every opportunity that comes my way and even if I feel uncomfortable or a little afraid or maybe a little anxious because I am not sure if this is truly what you want of me, are you really sure am I really the one, but I take a deep breath and I say yes.

I say yes to any opportunity that allows me to share my words with the world.  I say yes to any opportunity that allows me to give love and give compassion and give caring and give my heart to a situation so that it can become prosperous and healthy for someone else, I say yes.  I take a deep breath and I say yes use me, I take a deep breath and I say yes and I say use me, I take a deep breath and I say yes I am here to be used my Father.  I am here to be used in any way that you see necessary that finds a way to benefit this world.  I am here to be used in any way that you see necessary that allows people to feel loved and to show love to each other.

Let me be used in a way that can bring about a pleasant, a pleasant surrounding in the world that I live.  Let me be used in a way that brings about healing to suffering that someone may be feeling.  Let me be used in that way; for we are all here to be used in a way that benefits this world, that benefits the great I AM, and benefits all that we are about, which is to be of service here to each other.  I cannot say that I am here to be of service to the Lord, when I am asked to give of myself and I do not do so.  So I take a deep breath in and I say yes; yes I am willing to speak, yes I am willing to write, yes I am willing to share and spread the words of the Heavenly Father, the words of the gospel so that people can know that they are here to be loved not to be hurt.  That they are here to be cared for not to be treated unjustly, that they are here to be given all that is needed in their lives so that they can be given and shown all that they can be in this world.

I take a deep breath and I say yes, I take a deep breath and I say yes.  And this means more to me now than it has ever meant to me before.  I had an opportunity over the weekend to witness and to bear witness to an amazing woman.  This woman was born with no arms, “Tawana Williams”, and she calls herself “Unarmed but Dangerous”.  And the reason why she is unarmed but dangerous is because she took a deep breath and she said yes.  Yes I can write, yes I can help others, yes I can inspire and motivate people to see the good and the goodness in themselves, so that they can bring that out into the world.  She took a deep breath and she said yes; what excuses are we using in our lives today?  What excuses are we saying to ourselves that stops us from sharing the gifts that God has given us?  What excuses are we implying and imposing on ourselves to be small?

I realized I had excuses as well; I realized sometimes I feel I’m too big, sometimes I see myself as a figure that is too big and I want to shrink myself down so that I’m not so noticeable.  But how can that be when I have red hair, and you can almost see me from the Moon.  No I’m not here to be small or to play small I am here to be a force that God has made me to be.  So I will never ever look at myself as something that should be made smaller so that others can be feel bigger for themselves no.  I am here to say yes to whatever God has wanted me to do, whatever God feels is my destiny to do and whatever God sees me doing that benefits this world.  I am here to take a deep breath and say yes, take a deep breath and say yes, allow yourself to be what you were meant to be for the benefit and for the betterment of all God’s creatures and individuals here on this Earth be the gift that you were meant to be.  You were here, you are here, you are here for a purpose see that in yourself, see yourself for who you are.  You are a magnificent expression of the Great I AM, never, never, never forget that.

And when you feel, when you feel uneasy to step out on faith, to go into that business, to be that speaker, to be that writer, to be that artist, to be that someone who is here to make a difference I say to you today, take a deep breath in and say yes, take a deep breath in and say yes.  Take a deep breath in and say use me my Father, use me for what I am here to be, for I am here to be of service to you, use me for that good, allow me to share your good works with the world, allow me to share your good words with the world, with the masses, use me my Father, use me, because I take a deep breath and I say yes, and so it is, Amen and amen; God bless you all